hey, jay, you finished the book, you read the last page
let’s review. will you be free for forever and day?
or are you going to waste away eternity in a burning cage?
we need to analyze the character and state of your rage
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now hold on a moment i like just died give me a minute
to start with i did my damned best since the beginning
it’s not my fault the world i left is burning, evil winning
monsters and demons own and run the world, mouths grinning
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be that as it may that only amounts to a partial truth
if you’re going to plead your case use genuine articles
the feather will outweigh your heart with only one particle,
of karmon stuck to your soul in this final fascicle
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okay i got it and i hear what it is you’re saying to me
some days i wished i was God and everyone would pray to me
other days i stayed unambitious lazy crazy blazing trees
sometimes on my enemies i wished calamity and sick disease
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now we’re getting somewhere, but you can be more honest
you can’t change the past now like the passing of a comet
it’s too late to change a thing, the sickness now is chronic
your spirit can’t move on to contaminate the cosmos
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no way fuck that you can’t do this to me!
there’s no such thing as free will, life’s a useless thing!
give me another chance please can we reshoot this scene?
this can’t be it it’s too cruel and too obscene
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if i’m being honest i understand where you’re coming from
in mortal life you’re either running towards or running from
recovering from freezing cold or the blazing sun
truth be told in more than one way you’ve had an amazing run
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that’s what i’m saying! can you give me a pass now?
i lived with no fame or riches, if i did i cant flash it now
i have no bribe, i’m only able to sketch my passions out
i rarely went without but power is what i lacked throughout
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without a doubt! you don’t even make a case, it’s just true
but all truth is contradiction — so how can i trust you?
it’s also a fact that there’s actions you can’t undo
and when it came to it you didn’t do what you had to
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believe me my lack of will and effort kept me up late
until i’d dream about jumping in a lake mouth duct taped
nose too, wrists slit, cinder block chained, drugs in veins
that or drink a bunch and put a fucking slug inside my brain
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there’s no need for that and while calmness isn’t The Answer
regarding The Ultimate please refrain from tears or laughter
we’re trying to see things as such the way they really are
in some ways you’re a minor saint in others you’re a bastard
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i feel like we’re digressing here. so what yeah i yelled
am i getting into heaven or am i going to go to hell?
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neither, you still live, dying, your body lays were it fell
these are the last few seconds of your life, the magic spell
Jay Alejo Writes 