Jay Alejo Writes

my life feels experimental in a bad way

gaslit delusional over reacting lab rat

as if others experience my mental sayings

if i want something can never just have that

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this is par for course for almost all humans

and here my line of reasoning immediately rises

to heard politico-religious goals worth pursuing

and burying alive class enemies whom i despise

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mentally lately there’s dissociation at times

at other times a dialectical back and forth

either a neurotic monologue who sometimes rhymes

or two arguers approaching truth if abortive

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it is excessively easy to complain and wail

especially on the comedown from satisfaction

accomplishment and pride always turn stale

a mentality which characterizes inaction

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after all, if everything causes pain in some way

avoid it and refuse to plan or make efforts

but if we don’t compose ourselves and our sayings

then all we will have left at the end is deficits

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life is neither solely journey nor destination

it’s both continuously compounded and branching

each instant contains the ten times in its equation

and just, we must, try to avoid the devils dancing

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devils laughing, walking and pissing on our graves

drawing us hyperdimensionally through bardos

the all is the one and it is both we should save

with all of our efforts and all of our powers